Everything Old Is New Again

New year, new house. That's how we roll in this family. Even though North Carolina is not our final resting place (I hope) it works for the meanwhile. I came to this realization after we were put on notice that my husband's boss would like him to be relocated to Dallas. Even though it would be as a result of a promotion, my heart dropped a little at the thought of another move, another pediatrician, a new circle to search for.

We are still unmoored here even after 2 years. We've made some acquaintances but our social life is just our tight little nuclear family. We expanded a bit with the addition of Charley, a 15lb cat - who looks just like a fuzzy bath mat when he lays down, which is 23 and a half hours a day.

I am still not employed the way I'd like. I haven't expanded my own consulting biz and it's been over a year since my last gig. I still do the regional coordinating for the education company and chase after our daughter when she's not at preschool.

For a long time I thought "this is what limbo is."

But I am beginning to see that Lennon was right and that life is what happens while you are making other plans.

My plans are narrow and at the same time huge: to correct my perceptions of myself and the future I am living into.

I am looking for any bit of change I can. Sort of like a new gardener going out and pulling on the new seedlings to make them grow faster.

I'll let you know how it goes.